**I suggest reading the poem on this blog entitled “New Year’s Eve” https://gabrielsfury.wordpress.com/2011/11/28/new-years-eve/ before reading this.**
Something in the air up high last night
Weighed me down:
A heartstring and soul-baring searchlight
When I didn’t want to be found.
I tow the weight of the world
With me all the time,
But a ballet of feelings twirled
Through this aching heart of mine.
Just when I thought to leap,
And end my hauntingly bruised life,
I saw from upon the bridge so steep
A murky river full of sorrow, guilt, strife.
That light shined bright with so little warning.
It’s you I want to sink into, not the opaque.
And clearly, before the dawn of this new year’s morning,
In death I would have lost all the love still at stake.